alone

For the first time in a long time, I'm finally alone. Not just physically alone, but also responsibility alone (i.e., nobody to be responsible for or have to tend to). At my family home, I don't have to stay on my toes and be ready at any moment to be "Available, Visible, and Approachable."

It kind of feels good.

I love being a Don. This year has been so good. I definitely struggled a lot at the very beginning. I was very uncertain about what I should do and if what I was doing was right. I remember being so frustrated and upset, even questioning if this was God's will for me or if I had followed the wrong path. It was a scary time, not knowing if I had made a terrible mistake. Blessedly, I had a few people who continued to encourage me and surely those encouragements have made such a difference in my experience.

After four months, I can probably say each consecutive year of undergrad has topped the previous year. I love West Campus, I love the Don Team, and most of all, I love my Angus girls. There's definitely so much more that I can do, and that I aim to do; but I have been so blessed through these girls. I've learned so much about myself and stretching myself, only to realize that I can stretch even further. And in the times of frustration, there's been incredible support-even from within the house.

I can see God's love working in me. I can feel God's presence and guidance. I know that He is working and that He will continue His good work in the next few months to come.

I'll enjoy my alone time, even if I do miss being AVA for the moment.